Psalm 139: I know that full well

You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.
 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways. 
 Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.  
You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.
 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.
 Psalm 139:1-6

Before I am a mother, before I am a wife, before I'm a sister, a daughter, or a friend, before I am an employee, before I'm a democrat or republican before I am an American I am a child of God.
The creator of the universe knew me before my parents did. He formed me.
"I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made" Psalm 139:14
Sometimes the world around me doesn't make sense. Sometimes I feel like don't fit in in my own family. In my stress, in my depression, anger and uncertainty I know 2 things to be true. God's still for me and He's still here. I often feel ill-equipped to play all the roles I've been placed in, and yet God knows ME. He said he'd never leave me or forsake me. Sometimes that is hard to believe. A lot of people have said they'd never leave. But Numbers 23:19 reminds me that "God is not a man that he should lie, nor the son of man that he should change his mind"

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.
 If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,” even the darkness will not be dark to you;
    the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.
Psalm 139:7-12

I need that reminder. God is with me always. When I feel like my world is falling apart. When I feel utterly alone. When nothing makes sense. My creator is with me. He sees my tears, He knows my struggles. I'm not alone. He created me. My God knows my fears and doubts, my insecurities and short-comings. And better than that he equipped me to handle it. I don't have to go through anything alone! He cheers me on, tells me I CAN do it. And He KNOWS this to be true because He made me. He made the earth, the stars and the oceans and He Made Me.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb. 
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;your works are wonderful,
I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from youwhen I was made in the secret place,
when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.  Your eyes saw my unformed body;all the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.How precious to me are your thoughts,^[a] God! How vast is the sum of them!Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand —
when I awake, I am still with you.
Psalm 139:13-18

I feel under pressure sometimes. I get overwhelmed and sometimes I can't see my way out. I am trying to encourage myself in the Lord as David did in First Samuel when he was in "great distress."
This is a challenge. My heart feels heavy--I actually feel it in my chest it hurts.
I can relate to David. He was a dude that made A LOT of mistakes. I'm sure he embarassed his family once or twice with his actions (I can definitely relate to that). I'm sure he's felt unworthy. I know and I've read how he's felt depressed. And yet David is called a man after God's own heart.
That means there's still hope for me.

Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.
Psalm 139:23-24